Ditched

I hate that feeling I get when I get ditched. I feel so unloved and betrayed. wtf? How come you feel betrayed when it all happened to me. You wanted me to come to you, and why should I? You didn't spend any of your time coming to me so why should I come to you. I really don't get you. Ya'all know me as the person who don't get's mad and accepts everything, but this time it's different. I'm not apologizing any one for staying on the right decision. Why should you get treated any better then you treat me. What is your reason to be mad at me huh? That I didn't want to spend my time on you cuz you didn't either? That's a stupid reason! Come back again when you have a better reason.

Life

Everyday I feel insecure and nervous, I don't know why. I'm the girl who talks the most and the girl who get picked last at sports. I'm the annoying girl. I see so many fake friends come and I watch them leave, do I scare them? I'm the joker the girl who makes everything seems so funny! But under this joker there is a broken girl. I've always been the weird girl no one liked. I used to be bullied because I was so weird.. I knew I had to change to fit in so I slowly started growing up and "acting right" My best friends used to be my biggest enemies! I remember being bullied by them and it's painful thinking back of that. but I've learned one thing from all this experience  Don't look back

Trust Issues

Today when i went to school everything seemed pretty normal I was having a hard time forgetting a friend.. The forgetting part is a long story so let me make it short. It all started with treating me wrong getting mad about things i didn't even do! And i didn't say anything to her.. (Some time after i decided to give up and forget about her. 1’st day was cool ya know. second day she knew what she lost and wanted to talk to me. Just when thought i made a good decision..The worst part is she knew all about my plan! #Awkward. Now i know one of my best friends opened her mouth and told her.. IT WAS PRIVATE! Anyways I don’t think i can trust many people anymore because everyone got snobbish and selfish and the only think on their mind is how popular they are and stuff. Latter I decided to take my bike and ride it all the way home. When I came home i saw the this wannabe gangster girl yelling at some kids at the age of 7 and she was 17 I know choking. She is kinda violent and yells a lot lol. The police was allover the place so i couldn’t say anything to her. after a while one of my friends came over and we started criticize photos of people she hate.. I know it’s kinda mean but it's our way outta boringness lol.

broken

I’ve been waiting and waiting and nothing happened. I’ve been patience in so long! My heart is damaged, and it’s not your fault but mine. I was the person who  let  you in in the first place, so why blame you? I feel terrible! I think I was waiting for the wrong person. Sometimes i feel so stupid, I’do regret a lot! Sometimes I look back and think, is this really me? Sometimes everything feels different. Every time u ignore me, it hurts like a bullet. That way make me feel hated.. Music is the my way out of problems, out of the world i’m living in, out of YOU. I may seem happy but deep inside i’m in pain. Nobody really noticed but I’do feel terrible. :/ But like i wrote before NOT your fault but mine. I’do like to be strong enough to face my problems, face you. Your so mean and a terrible friend. I’do anything to make you wanna be my friend, but it’s so hard when you always is so… Everything is my fault.